Where did you go?

I remember you, you were so secure, so beautiful and so young. A young woman, who used to speak the truth and only the truth; you loved Shakespeare plays, acting, reading and art. You were not easily underestimated nor misunderstood. I remember you like if I met you yesterday. Now what's left of you is buried somewhere in a random street in Barcelona, deep do

wn in the corners of my being, waiting... waiting for me to come back for you.

I remember you, always scribbling away in your notebooks, stories, adventures and creatures brought out of your imagination like it was an easy thing to do. The only thing that ever worried you was love, that incandescent yearning to find your soulmate, the "one". On the way you found,... well,... some beasts that are oddly called by society "men", even "gentlemen" but they weren't.

And yet, you always managed to smile and go on. You were kind, honest and gosh, so strong. Full of energy and dreams,...

Now I must do the same thing. I have to find the strength to smile and go on, return to the "basics". I must find you,... I WILL find you really soon. It's a promise.

I won't let myself be enchanted by anyone less worthy than you, nor deceived or betrayed. You - I... we- shall love with passion, courage and soul, someone who will return this affections and shall know that he is one lucky "guy". But most important, I'll be myself, I'll read again, talk about things that matter, that I like and in my work, in every project, homework or sketch that I'll do, something of myself, of my knowledge and my passion will be imprinted. So everyone, not just "anyone" will know, it's my doing, it's a part of me. Because I promised myself, some time ago, I would devote my life to art. And I keep my promises, of that you can be sure.

Then, with my head held high, I will go to that random street in Barcelona, to that small restaurant by the see, where I left you with those promises and I'll bring you back to join me.

(17 de septiembre de 2010, "enough is enough". Autoreflexión)